let me be 'ME'

there was apoem i read in school....dun rememeber da title..nor da exact lines but it was about sum1 who had bcum too much frustrated wearin a facade...he wanted to be him....but da world forced him to be someone else........false pretence...false praises....all had made him hate da world....n all he desired for was his innocent childhood where he was so much away from da wordly ways..........n his soul was pure...uncorrupted...he could wave n smile if he liked n it wasnt necessary to greet every1 to be "NICE".....but then there are hundreds of ppl he cudn hurt....so a fake smile till his cheeks hurt....else he was cald proud.........a world wear he wore a mask each n every day...........

i dun know y i m thinking of this poem .....tryin to memorise its line.....its been long...i dun even rememeber which standard i read it in...

sometimes i feel so too....sometimes i desire earnestly for ppl in front of whom i can be me......just me...da real me.....without fear...

u meet so mant ppl in life....some do let u be u but its nt that simple....it starts wid phrases like "u r so amazing"......perfect..."i like da way u..." to end up with the same ppl trying to change u in everyway they can........till u simply stop being u......till u wanna yell at them to stop it......

da poet said that the world demands u to be different than what your innerself wants u to be if u wanna survive.......it takes u away from "U"....n u end up being fake.......

if only i cud remember da poem...

ishh: i need u

ishh: i need u: i need u...some times i just wanna sum it up in these 3 words n sometimes i wanna write n write till words dun come...i need u.... i need ...

i need u

i need u...some times i just wanna sum it up in these 3 words n sometimes i wanna write n write till words dun come...i need u....

i need u to understand....understand me..like no one ever did....more than i say...n beyond my deeds.....

u need not be da perfect guy on this earth....u need not be da most handsome one...i dun wanna show u off to the world...i dun want u for da world...... i want u for me..just me...

i dun want u to shower me gifts cards or flowers....i just want u to be near me....each n everytime i need u n also wen i dun....

i need u to understand....dat sumtimes i reali dun understand..!! this world..the people....why somes things turn out the way they do....n why ppl sometimes behave the way they do.......y sometimes everything is so wierd.......i need u to understand that sometimes i might have a completely different perspective..(sorry many times)...n sometimes i tend to look at things beyond good or bad....n that my views mostly do not match with the general ones....

i need u to understand that i dont take revenges...i dun fight back on many on many things..i dun shout back....but m not a coward... when the time comes i can stand for myself........

i need you to understand that m a bit of confused in everything i do;) .....a friend of mine who now rests in heaven named me confusion personified.....i might say its brown today .....2mrw it may be pink......yet i can stick to many things firmly.......

i need u to understand that i can never hurt u intentionally....i cant..its not in me....

i need u to understand that where ever u are.......i'm waiting for u............I NEED U

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ishh: no title: isnt it strange da way u become immune to certain things that once affected u a hell lot...and now when they happen u dun even wanna spend y...

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ishh: no title: isnt it strange da way u become immune to certain things that once affected u a hell lot...and now when they happen u dun even wanna spend y...

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isnt it strange da way u become immune to certain things that once affected u a hell lot...and now when they happen u dun even wanna spend your energy giving a simple frown...as if i dun even care to react...leave alone argue...ha ha...the same thing affected u so much that each aspect of your life turned hell...n now...[just nothing]

may be thats da stage when u find yourself merrier..more content...n when da most appropriate phrase dat hovers in your mind is...life s good..u tend to look at da good aspects...not those who ditched u but those who stood by u......not those who maligned u but those who were ready with words to make u smile....just a smile:)

once sum1 told me...whenever something bad happens...dun mourn...look at da brighter aspect...LIFE IS A SIEVE...it has just removed those u were nt good to u....so dat u remain wid those who care....sumtimes u cant define situations as..i lost a frd....sometimes they were just not meant to be...!! n i guess what she told me is right..may be..!!

but at  least one thing i have learnt....when u focus more on the good things in your life...good ppl...all da good good...life seems much much much better.....cause you are driving al your energy towards THE GOOD..!!

ishh: i m still learning..

ishh: i m still learning..: "never let a person of the opoosite gender make you compromise with your standards" This had been one of my fav quotes since school....tho...