what medical school does to you!

You enter the med school with such naivety that if you compare yourself with what you were and what you turned into(post mbbs) you would be shocked. Medical life changes you completely.

  You develop the superpower to cram/understand/both huge enormous books..store it permanently in your brain and then lose the key...a heavier brain but seems so empty! 

  They make you study everything possible in this world..if you ever see someone analysing a mosquito they just killed..be sympathetic.. He/She,probably,is a mbbs student trying to identify the species...might even be wondering what does this cause?  Nope they aint worried about malaria...what probably the poor creature is trying to recall is whether it was filariasis or chikunginya,Japanese encephalitis or rift Valley fever.

     

   You cannot ever estimate what your body needs more..oxygen or caffeine?? Add alcohol for few..and nicotine for others. (Caffeine works for me thankfully) 

   It makes you super annoyed and irritated when non medico pass comments like' dude your exams are after a month why are you pretending to be busy with studies!' :/ 

   Every friend of yours is suddenly suffering from cancer, tb and what not and it's normal!

     You attend few weddings(esp those who do mbbs from outside their state) and wonder whose who..when did these people grow up..! Let alone get married why were they so desperate to have kids so soon..(and you realise they are functioning at a normal pace!!)

   You have these intermittent urges to contact people and remind you are still alive and will be available one day...do wait!!

   You browse through Facebook instagram whatsapp pics,  then look at your clothes and realise..oh so this is what is in these days..why don't I own these clothes too? Just let me get over with this then I will follow the trend too (lol)... One day yeah :/

   

   This sun and moon cycle doesn't stand a chance in your life.You can wake when you want, work when you want and sleep when you want(if they let you).

It makes you numb to a lot of things people would generally feel for and hypersensitive to things you could easily let go....wierd emotions.

  And while dealing with all this you wonder why your peers pass comments like 'but then you are a medico(wow)' 'a feat very few achieve ' and you give them a vacant look...really??what did I do..ha ha kiddo!! Wish you knew!

  

when an old forgotten song takes you down the memory lane...

An old song,  an old episode of your favorite late TV show or a mere tune is enough to throw you back into the past.Isnt it strange we never think about it…it never plays in our mind  but you suddenly here a song and lo! It takes you down the memory lane…
   Sometimes it takes you there where it felt the best. Your first crush. That  first excitement..
    The first time I saw him..he was the cutest guy I had ever seen. He was so full of life. My friend was all over him and he looked so disinterested. My mum made me talk to him..I remember looking into his eyes all the time..I can never forget that spark…and of course that smile.That intense mutual will to talk more and more…
  Two days later I remember watching him go.I thought I would never see him again.He looked at me until the vehicle drove away..somehow conveyed there was more to it..Sometimes I think if things had stopped at that point,it would have been different. But then that is past,right? You can never change even a bit of it.
  We later became friends..best friends.The first guy friend I ever had. Though we did not meet for a year after that it became the closest relationship I had.We eventually fell in love…there was no reason not to.My first love.My first friend. I wish things had remained that beautiful but we ultimately screwed the whole thing…ended on a bitter note..Though we did reconcile after years but its been all formal.
    Hmm.. So thats what a tiny insignificant (?) tune does to you…it takes you back into that Era but it doesnt let you change it. Thats bad:)

Truth.
Down there no one really cares.All that matters is self.
People are so downright selfcentered and selfish that ultimately you have to make a choice.You have to decide whose selfishness you can bear without losing your peace of mind and then you allow them to become a part of your life. Its a process...sad one though.