Sunday, 5 May 2013

N I let it go...

The hardest part of my life has been this...standing on the edge of a cliff my hands shake .....have u ever tried distancing someone from u....someone u have loved a lot......a hell lot......but till a time comes when the best u can do is go away.....away from the person....away from yourself....away from the sweetest side of yours....though u may know this will change u.....change everything....but then Der is nothing u can do.........a time comes when u hate yourself....hate so much that u can't let love love die in this hatred slowly n slowly everyday....u have to let it go....let it fly away somewhere where love still exists....somewhere where trust..understanding...caring still exists....it does not here...within me....n u give the final push....push it from the edge....n see Der it goes.... U wanna call it back so badly....but u keep numb...simply stare...Der it goes.....someone somewhere will do it good.....u climb down...heavily burdened with memories....each step u take it gets unbearable....n u good
break down..... its over....it wasn't meant to be....but it is....

Something's I never understood....somethings were just not meant for me...something's ..yeah..I could not handle.....some people were just too good for me....

Y write more n for whom...!!I give up writing... Let this be the final one..cause now Der won't be anymore....its a lonely road ......

Wednesday, 13 February 2013

Last one..

No more.. http://ishitak22.blogspot.com/2013/02/no-more.html

No more..

Sometimes u have to lose everything cause that's the only option u have..sometimes u have to do things u never thought u would....leave people u never imagined your existence without....just for their sake....life is strange...sometimes it gives u so much...yet other times nothing...Der r times it gives u everything except what u want....everything has bcum so complex...
   I sit on bed,staring out of the window...wondering if I have someone to say all this....n then a thought springs up....why bother anyone....ain't they themselves surrounded by their own hefty problems...?? Who is interested?
  sometimes everything is fine...u r busy yet happy...content...n everyday u wake up n say ...I love  my life....but the other days u feel a complete void...nothing is clear....u feel like a tiny creature trying to understand the complexities of life ....on your own...trying not to hurt anyone in this process...nor wanna get hurt...
an extremely reserved person I was...until I learnt things get better when u share .... with friends I suppose...!!strange but life again made me a closed box..tightly entangled in chain with locks...keys I have thrown away...just not ready to be open...(really...??)
   only if someone could have understood I was waiting for a bit of understanding....lil initiative...n a little effort to open up again...if only u had given me your hand...
  

Tuesday, 29 January 2013

Stop taking for granted..!!

Y do some people take so much advantage of everything....y do ppl take others for granted....just cause they know u r too close....n won't ever leave....the same ppl go to world s end to make everything alright when things go terribly wrong.....but r too lazy to do the same bit by bit everyday so that we never ever reach that stage.....
   we are sometimes just too lazy n mean....we go to miles to do something for people who dun mean anything to us just cause they won't wait for us..just cause they won't understand us....but dun care to understand ppl sitting just beside us........why ?? Just cause they r close to our heart n we can always make them feel good when free ...just cause all they will do is complain...n.we  can always make up for it....someday...!!! plenty of time we have...!huh!!
its so hard to make a call.to a distant frd or family ....always short of balance but we have loads n loads of it to chatter uselessly for hours to ppl nearby.....no time to respond calls but hell.lot of it to waste lying downing bed doing nothing.....
  that's us v r too lazy for the one close to heart....da one who deserves each n every minute of us......n busy with things that mean nothing..people who just dun count....!!