MAKE ME IMMUNE plz...!!

sometimes i feel..thats it....der are no more strange people to see....is se zyaada kya ho ga n life brings yet another bunch .....n da more i meet da more my mind wanders how to deal with them/....

i have met a hell lot of different ppl here....

some like my status said are victims of inferiority complexes who tend to hide it wid a big pseudoego...inside they just too shallow......try n argue u go nowhere...they create a world in their mind where dey r sooo perfect n we all just fools........sometimes i feel its utter stupidity to feel bad about what they say about u but......mind was never a remote controlled gadget......its bound to feel...n it DOES FEEL....!!

den there are some...no matter how much u do for them....in da end it seems so less(of course from der point of view).......n just some trivial fake efforts by others r appreciated so much by them......what u stand in their life..how much u mean all depends where u r...with whom u r....n actually on WHO's WATCHING....!!!!! everything about them is so temporary....

da other one.....they have diff rules for diff people.....diff personalities for diff......n guess what ...for u the bad side is alwz der...!! they might be ready to forgive forget no matter what happens in life but when it comes to u they want to get it etched wid sum highly permanent non washable ink in their mind n want to revise it more n more......more than they shud be actually revising their med syllabus...!!

since da day i hv come here.......i hv seen so many simply struggling to adjust...understand(no efforts yet..!!).....make decisions( which of course dun last..!!)......crave for sumone(who they never get..).....n the list goes on...n there were even some u gave up.....n me??? m simply trying to understand whats happening.....

everytime i write a stupid sad status...i get a feeling ...not again....!! ab toh samajh jao....but then i down have some down regulators working in this department at least who will make me immune.....i cant.........

its been around 7 years i came out of my coccoon(my home..my sfc) n hv had innumerable experiences......its a cycle......it will go on.......m just waiting for the moment when things will actually stop affecting me.......n like others i would be explaining others too"koi kisi ka nahi hota" LOL....he he

let me be 'ME'

there was apoem i read in school....dun rememeber da title..nor da exact lines but it was about sum1 who had bcum too much frustrated wearin a facade...he wanted to be him....but da world forced him to be someone else........false pretence...false praises....all had made him hate da world....n all he desired for was his innocent childhood where he was so much away from da wordly ways..........n his soul was pure...uncorrupted...he could wave n smile if he liked n it wasnt necessary to greet every1 to be "NICE".....but then there are hundreds of ppl he cudn hurt....so a fake smile till his cheeks hurt....else he was cald proud.........a world wear he wore a mask each n every day...........

i dun know y i m thinking of this poem .....tryin to memorise its line.....its been long...i dun even rememeber which standard i read it in...

sometimes i feel so too....sometimes i desire earnestly for ppl in front of whom i can be me......just me...da real me.....without fear...

u meet so mant ppl in life....some do let u be u but its nt that simple....it starts wid phrases like "u r so amazing"......perfect..."i like da way u..." to end up with the same ppl trying to change u in everyway they can........till u simply stop being u......till u wanna yell at them to stop it......

da poet said that the world demands u to be different than what your innerself wants u to be if u wanna survive.......it takes u away from "U"....n u end up being fake.......

if only i cud remember da poem...